DON'T YOU REMEMBER
Sunday, October 16, 2011
When was the last time you had thought of me ? Or have you completely erased me from your memory ? When will I see you again ? You left with no goodbye, not a single word was said. I had no idea the state we were in.
Don't You Remember - Adele
I sighed and glanced at the watch on my wrist. It's already getting late and the skies above showed signs that it is going to rain and we still couldn't find the way home from the book fair. I turned off the radio as it was booming with all those heavy metal and hardcore rock songs. I leaned back and as I was about to doze off, my eye caught sight of a familiar place. I blinked and I peered at the window incase I was dreaming but then I realised that I wasn't.
A million gazillions scenes flood my mind without warning and I found myself replaying the favourite memories of us - the stolen glances, the random calls and text message and the short blissful moments when everything seemed ever so perfect. A smile drew across my face as I knew back then everything was real for how could you keep going back to someone who completely had no feelings at all.
But don't you remember ? Don't you remember at all ? The reasons you loved me ? Baby, please remember me once more.
Queer isn't how you could fall completely head over heels for someone who made you think that you are somewhat special and the next moment before you knew it, that special someone made you feel like you're nothing. Like you're some worthless piece of crap or a toy that is waiting to be dumped after we got bored ? Queer isn't how people think that feelings are something that could be toy around ?
It is amazing how at one point of our lives, we can be extremely close with someone and then later both of you became two complete stranger. Both of you will pass by each other without a single word. Without a single acknowledging look. This person, who once knew your fears, dreams, past and also future is now walking past you, seeing right through you. Funny and at the same time queer isn't ?
Another night where the image and scenes of you flashed right before my eyes. Another night where I find it impossible to shut my eyes without having you dwelling in my mind filling the empty spaces in my head.
As I was drifting to sleep, I asked myself.
Does love need to hurt this much ?Labels: heart-love
3:52 PM