When you lose someone, someone you love, when they break your heart, it is like one of the hardest thing that you have to go through.

And no matter how much time has passed, the feelings never really go away.

You may think you are getting better but then you get a flashback, or hear a song that reminds you of a memory that bring back the moments you once shared and it hit you all over again, all at once, like a stab in the chest or maybe worse than that and you fall apart again for the countless times and all you wanna do is crawl under a huge big rock or bury yourself and never to come out.

You love this person with all your heart when you know you shouldn't.

They hurt you worse than you have ever been hurt, they stole your happiness and yet you still want them back in your life. 

You want no one else but only them.

Other people came along and to show them that they are different and gave you chances to move on but you don't want to.

You're afraid of moving on and it upsets you because you once made a promise of an eternal love even though now that promise is no longer valid but to you moving on just means that you are breaking your promises.

You don't care that they have break the promises, you just want to keep yours.

And on top of that, you're afraid. Afraid of getting hurt and go through all those shit again.

Not that it matters anyway because at the end of the day, you'll still think of that person who completely left you broken.

You tell yourself a million times that you have to stop thinking of them and you don't want to miss them anymore and you don't want to love them anymore but in the end, we all know that we will still miss that one particular person.