THE MASTERMIND
Gotta change my answering machine
Now that I'm alone
Cause right now it says that we
Can’t come to the phone
And I know it makes no sense
Cause you walked out the door
But it’s the only way I hear your voice anymore
It’s ridiculous
It’s been months
And for some reason I just can’t get over us
And I’m stronger than this
No more walking round
With my head down
I’m so over being blue
Crying over you
And I'm so sick of love song
So sick
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Monday, December 3, 2012
It was a long day for me. I woke up that morning wishing that it was night so I can go to sleep again. It had been ages since I felt like this, since I felt dead and I felt nothing was right. It has been long and I thought I never need to feel so dreadful and miserable to face life anymore. I thought that two years back was last but I never saw this coming. I never. If only I did, I could save myself from so much hurt and so much tears but guess I was too naive to believe that it will never happen again.
As I flipped through our photos, our text and our notes, I wonder what went wrong.
I knew I could no longer take it anymore. I tried to be strong, tried to holdback but it wouldn't work. When I everyone is asleep and I know that I'm all alone, I ran to my room, closed the door and before I could even throw myself on the bed, I was crying. I sat down on the floor, it started off with all those little droplet of tears and before I knew it, I was sobbing so hard I could feel my whole body shaking. It was then I realised I was too loud and I covered my mouth and try to cry as softly as I could. I was holding myself so hard hoping that those tears would stop flowing but it did not instead it fall more. I was crying so hard that I reach a point where I find it so hard to breathe and I was gasping for air. My chest hurts, my eyes swollen and on that very moment, I wish I was dead so I feel no pain.
It hurts so much to cry in the dark. It hurts even more when you are so broken inside and you got no one to fix it for you.
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