You know those nights where you lay in bed thinking ? Thinking about what happen on that day, what if's and also where the future might take you ? But do you know those nights where as you lay your head on the pillow, your body curls into a ball and you are there lying down with your whole body shaking under the sheets trying to muffled up the sounds of your tears ? Again, those nights knock on my window paying me an unwanted visit.

Sometimes I wonder what on earth is wrong with me. There were days I felt perfectly happy, I felt complete and there were days where I felt like everything doesn't seem to go my way and it is like the whole world is against me and I am left alone to carry the heavy burden on my shoulders. Most days I tell myself that I'm sane and I believe I am but does a sane person have this stupid and crazy conflicts that she is battling inside ? I don't know.

A voice in my head keeps telling me I am mad. . .

Forgive me for a super large and camwhorific picture of myself.

Well, as all of you all can guess by looking at the blog title itself, this is going to be a long ass blog post I think compared to those previous post. Once in a year should be okay right to be vain and all self loving right.

I actually was not looking forward to my birthday at all as first of all it falls on a Monday where everyone gets the Monday blues and lazy-to-get-on-with-my-life routine. Secondly, it is the second year that I was not able to celebrate with my family. Thirdly, my old friends were toooooo busy to go out with me but then again, who could decide and predict what life has for you ? And I was one of them.

As I was crying having a skype session with Laura for being such a sweetheart by giving me a surprise on Skype with all her manila cards where she wrote her wishes one by one and flip it for me to see. She was a friend who I really wish we could spend more time more often and now we are seperated by distance where she is thrown to the North and me South so we did not meet each other anymore but still she was so sweet to do that for me :') I was so touched and I could barely speak a thing and just sit down there in a state of shock.

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Sorry for the low picture quality. We were both using broadband :\

And then there was a knock on my door past midnight and I thought it was my friend but when I opened the door no one was in there so I kinda freaked out as I could feel the hair at the back of my head is standing. Then there was a knock again I did not even dare to move an inch when I heard a voice saying,"Shi wo le (it's me)" So I decided to open and Joan gave me a hug and present and wish me Happy Birthday. So do see how this day started off so well ? :)

One of the most beautiful thing which I never imagined would ever happen in my life or the next 1878784128847 years to come actually came true on that Monday. I would not like to spill the details of the event but some spoilers is that I would trade 10 years of my life to have a replay of that scene. Okay just sayin. Anyhow it was really like a scene from a drama and thank you my lovely brother you are so fab and kind and really made my day :D I wish I can tell you personally but then again you know I am a person who does not really convey feelings. Thank you so so much you are the bestttttt. :3

Tada ! My beautiful rose ! :D (It was much more beautiful that day)

I love how my life I always have people who loved me and always there when I need them and they are people who I can fall back on and I could not thank God and everyone for giving me this chance. I feel so blessed and so loved by everyone that if they were here I wish to hug them so much. And so far in my new college, these two girls had always been treating me so nice. Zhi Yuen and Jee, I wish I have the words to tell you how much both of you touched my life and I am absolutely lucky to have both of you especially you Zhi Yuen. You are one of my best bud. I know I am one person who is so hard to put up with but you both beared with me and I wish nothing more than seeing both of you leading a good life. Time may change people, things and places but I never want time to change our friendship ever. And same goes for you Arr Vin you mischiveous adorable guy who always bring a smile to my face and cared for me and sometimes nag at me like a dad. I love all of you to bits & pieces.

Nothing makes me happier than knowing that there is someone who always there for me :)