LIAR VS LIES
Friday, June 22, 2012
I am a liar. Like all liars do, I lie. I lie a lot. I lie to my parents, my family, my friends and mostly everyone I know. Like all liars do, I mask my feelings deep underneath trying to hide my true emotions. I am so good at lying till I could no longer differentiate when I am telling the truth and when I am lying. I guess this is what happens to liars, in the end when they could no longer differentiate, they just end up hanging somewhere in between.
Honestly I am tired of being a liar. If I am given one more chance to fix everything up again, I'll chose not to be one because honestly lying not only gain you more sins but also it eats up your soul bit by bit, day by day. But once you started to lie, you'll find it hard to stop which is why I end up like this. Lying has been a part of me. I do not know when I'll stop but I hope it will be soon as I can feel my energy is drained as I need to feed the liars in me.
What did I lie you may ask ? Well, nothing big really. I lied about my feelings. Maybe I don't have any feelings already as I am a liar. I lie well. What more about feelings. In this renowned world now, do such things such as feelings and emotions still exist ? I do not think so. On the outside I may be laughing smiling and having fun but deep inside I am battling a conflict of emotions where I do myself do not know where it came from. Every time people ask me whether I am okay and all those stuff I lied to them saying that I am fine. And as time passed, I realized that I actually believed myself.
I realized other people lie too. Some say they'll always be with me and be there for me and people no matter how still leave in the end. Why bother making such promise ? Some lied by being fake in this context they act like they are your best friend forever or some shit but at the back of you, they stabbed you with the sharpest knives and daggers that they could find and they stabbed hard, bit by bit, and when you finally came to know about the pain. You no longer can do anything about it. Or is it me getting my expectations to high on others ?
Lies, they live within us.
I am a liar. A crazy stupid liar.
Labels: college, Emo, Random blah's
12:40 AM
WAIT FOR IT
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
Sometimes I don't have the time. Sometimes I couldn't find the words to convey what I feel but most of the time I let the laziness in me dread and that is why to those people who stalk me always, pardon me for my obsession with myself, would notice that I had left this blog dead.
So here I have a few post that I would like to share so I hope you'll enjoy.
Anticipate tomorrow :)
Labels: Random blah's
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