Sunday, July 31, 2011
Harro dear redears.
I will not blog as often as I do anymore.
My apologies.
Will blog when I wish to.
Lots of love. xx
5:53 PM
IT'S OVER
Sunday, July 24, 2011
What happens if your tears can make someone that you love smile ? What happens if your misery can make someone happy ? WIll you cry everyday, will you turn your misery into happiness just to make someone smile ? Weird as it sounds but I do for I feel this is where the God is testing how far and how much I am willing to sacrifice for someone who means the whole entire universe to me, MY MUM.
I am in the verge of jumping off the cliff now. I feel that there is no meaning in my life anymore at this point. All I want to do now is cry my hearts out and lock myself out from the world.
Mum, how could I resist you or turn down you offer when I see your face all I could see was how proud of you on me. How this is the first time I ever felt you really really love me, for the first time I feel like a little girl again. Mum, tell me how could I say NO when all I see is a smile on your face ?
I'm sorry I sounded reluctant or hesitant towards for all my life mum I never picture myself tu turn out like that. That is why till now I could not accept the fact.
How could I say NO when everyone says a yes ?
Slumping into a massive depression. Don't even try to save me anyone. Let me sink in.
YOU KNOW I WILL MISS YOU THE MOST.
Labels: emon-ess
1:27 AM
AFTER ALL THIS TIME
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
You never really move on. They came into the back of your mind. That person will always be there. You can not simply forget about the feelings and the times you had with that person. It is impossible. They might anger you, frustrated you, make you sad and you might end up hating them. But there's a reason that you fell in love with them for the first time. You never forget them as time to time unexpectedly or expectedly, they will still cross your mind.
Finally I'm here after a long hiatus. And I promise constant update after this (:
So sorry lovelies. I have been extremely and uber busy which my daily routine goes on as college, library (which is now officially my second home) & the moment I got home, I will just throw myself onto my bed and play the lazy song y'all. Teeheee.
I have serious mood swing these few days. I don't know why. I am easily pissed off. Feel sad outta nowhere & every little thing could affect me easily. What is wrong with me ? I think I am going insane. I have doubts of sanity on myself. LOL.
So, I went to watch the last episode of my childhood last friday. Yeah, you got it right.
"HARRY POTTER AND THE DEATHLY HALLOWS PART 2." To those who has not watch & not planning on watching cuz you think it's a show for idiots, let me tell you one thing. You will regret your whole life for not watching as this movie is mindblowing and sensational. So, it is up to you. (: I was teary eyed the whole movie. I can't believe it ended. One moment you watch they were all so young and adorable and now how they have grown up. :') That feeling I cannot explain.
And there was this part where they flashback the whole series from 1 to 7 ?
I FUCKING CRIED MY HEARTS OUT.
Indeed. And hell yeah I love Snape's & Lily Potter love story.
AFTER ALL THIS TIME ?
"ALWAYS. . ."
Gtg for exams. Promise I'll be back (:
You'll never fall in love the same way like you did last time but eventually, you will fall in love again.
ps : Always.
Labels: Random blah's
4:42 PM
ALMOST BIG DAY
Friday, July 1, 2011
And it scares me how fast time flies and how fast people grow and I'm afraid when everything happens, I will not be able to be there to witness it all and will not be able to remember every single thing that happen between us and hereby I thank God I was given a chance to cherish each and every moment.
1st of July which means Imma turning 18 y'all tomorrow ! Finally no more underage and whatever shit I am legal yawwww. And today will be a day where I wish I'll never forget. (:
I was freaking out like hell as I dint do my legals at all D: So I went to school and cut cut and paste paste 20 articles I think I wanna die d. x__x And I was so busyyy and all I dint even suspect or have the slightest idea that my lovely classmates (i'm smiling as i'm writing this down now) :P is doing a surprise for me behind my back.
Almost 10, my baobeii Kay ask me follow her to the cafetaria and I'm like,"ohhh okayy." and then when I came back to class, it was dark and I was like,"where's everyone ? Bugger left us here and go lunch la -___-" and poof !
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They were hiding actually HAHA. |
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Me ! I was so shocked ! ASFJKL whatt. |
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I was left speechless (: |
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CANDID ! credits to my dear Claire (: I love this pic :D |
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KK SHOCK ! ! |
I was really really left gasping for words and I don't know what to say when I found out that they did a surprise for me and I just couldn't say a word as I was shocked and touch at the same time that I just let the tears roll down my cheeks.
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CANDID ! |
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lovelies (: |
Look at how happy I was ? (: It was truly unexpected you know ?? Like how do I say this ? Cuz yeah you know, everyone is like so busy finishing up their assignments, reports and study for exam and heck, who would ever thought they did a surprise for me ? :')
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I super duper love the card. (: ASFJKL. |
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The four people that's with me all the time. A big thank you to them (: |
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Favourite pic ! :D |
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Love you (: |
Stupid Kishen love terrorizing me no matter what. You see how the events unfold when he say he wanted to feed me and I'm like gasping and said,"NOOOOOOOO KISHHHEENNNNN ! I don't want. Get away from me." And he's like,"Come let me feed you." So yeahhh -_____-
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Terrible. |
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It went to my face ! @#$%^& |
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Thanks to Kishen my hair look like shit ! |
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My dear Tzi Ying <3 |
HEHEHEHE thanks guys for this lovely and wonderful surprise that you guys came up with eventhough all of you are so busy. It was really something that I will not forget. I love each and everyone of you yes YOU :DD Thank you for everything and may God bless each and everyone of you.
ps :You know I cherish each moment we spend together eventhough it's for a short while. Hee :B
Labels: SAM
11:57 PM