Monday, March 28, 2011
It's just been a day and miss home so much already.
How am I gonna get thru the whole time ?
Orientation is good.
Will blog everything tomorrow.
Good night.
10:11 PM
OH WELL
Saturday, March 26, 2011
Look at the bottom of the SPM result slip, and you see 1119 GCE-O ?
I got
1A for that (: Fuck yeah ! (: And obviously I got
A+ for both English and BM.
Okay, skip that.
Well, basically I did not go to school to take the results.
I was freaking out the whole time at home. Couldn't sit, couldn't stand, couldn't watch tv and couldn't do anything right. I was nervous throughout the day.
And I literally bit my nails.
Almost 12pm, my phone rang and soon it was flooded with tons of messages.
And when my cousin called me and told my result, I was like,"..."
My cousin got straight A+ btw :D
Oh well, basically my results was really terrible though.
Mum was totally disappointed and she said I was a big letdown.
So she temporary BANNED me from pursuing my plan to take SAM.
YAY !
So now I'm stuck here.
But I only got myself to blame for not studying.
Labels: emon-ess
12:06 AM
SHATTERED
Monday, March 21, 2011
My dream is running further and further from me each passing day and I sat here wondering, if this is the worse, when will the WORST one come ?
From my previous post, as you can see, I was
pretty excited over the moon about that SAM thingy but I guess my excitement should just stop here.
I don't know what is happening. One moment there was a ray of light and the next moment I know everything went black.
My life right now.
At first mum agreed that I go for it and the next thing she changed her mind every one second.
I just don't know.
Yeap, first I wanna take up SAM because I dunno what I wanna do in the future or what shall I major in. And besides that, I wanna use these period of 11 months to really really think what I wanna do.
I do have a few jobs that I have in mind but my mum doesn't approve nay of it. And what she want me to be, I FUCKING HATE IT.
So, like I said, my dream is
going running away from me.
Sometimes I wonder, shall I go with the flow or fight for what is right ?
And I've kinda made up my mind.
I'm following the situation.
Whatever it is, I don't give a fuck anymore.
I don't care.
Does it make a difference ?
The world going to end soon.
ps : i miss the times when everything was so perfect.
11:53 AM
JUST A DREAM ?
Saturday, March 19, 2011
Few more days, all of us will take a different route in our life, some will go college and abroad, some going ns second batch and some gonna continue working till the wait for the government scholarship and as for me, I don't know.
I told my mum yesterday after I got back from edu fair, I said I wanted to take up SAM (South Australian Matriculation) and she asked me what was that and I explained it all and she asked me how much and I said 20k and she said I can go.
The intake is 28th. Mum was like,"Don't they have later intake ?"
And I'm like,"NO."
So she mumbled something which I did not hear.
I was over the moon, my mum agreed on something I like for the first time so if nothing comes in the way, I'm heading up to KL next Thursday and register myself for SAM at Taylor's Subang.
I'm so delighted till that I'm afraid all this is just a dream.
I tell myself I'm gonna make this work if I really get to go Taylor's.
And on the other note, my mum said need to depend on result.
And I heard her saying it doesn't matter what result I get for it can't be undone already O.o
AM I DREAMING ?????????????????? D:
Labels: Random blah's
3:31 PM
MISERY
Thursday, March 17, 2011
Perfectly feel like dying.
Few days more, I dunno how many days more, SPM results is gonna be out.
And that is gonna be the end of me. Yup, THE END of me.
I dreamed twice that I did not get the results that I wanted.
During pmr, it was also like that, and now it's like this also.
I am so sure my mum is going to peel one layer and another layer of my skin and then batter me to death if I get that kinda result.
Everyday, I've been asking God for mercy to at least give me my expected result and I get to go to my dream college and lead the life that I desire.
Each day I wish time would just stop there and then for I have no reason to look forward.
I know somehow sooner or later I am going to receive the results.
But if I'm all the while a smart girl, BRING IT ONNNNNNNNNNNN babeyh !
But I'm not.
And now how I regret for slacking around.
Fuck my poor life.
This is why people always regret things later.
Please at least I wanna get my expected resultttttttttttttttt. T_____________T
crying pool of tears ;A;
6:30 PM
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
WILL UPDATE ASAP .
if you wanna know what I do, feel free to come
HERE.Labels: Random blah's
10:06 PM
PISSED
Saturday, March 5, 2011
Yayyyy ! Whoopeedooo ! And again I'm in a stupid shit mood that I just keep to myself, cry and cry for I dunno what reason, refuse to talk and sulk my face all day. What the fuck. I feel like dying.
Tumblr crashed down !!!!! The main thing that worsen my mood.
Missed Dream High concert special, another plus to my bad mood.
No lunch.
Get scolded for I dunno what the fuck I did wrong.
Dint get to watch Secret Garden.
And I'm now sitting here wondering how to spend my night OMFG.
Someone please save me.
Sometimes when we want our lifes to be perfect, that's where it turn out to be a disaster.
Labels: Eff-ed, Random blah's
5:50 PM
DAY 2-WHERE YOU'D LIKE TO BE IN 10 YEARS
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
PARIS (:
I've been asked this question numerous times regardless by friends when we're day dreaming, teachers or motivators, my family, my mum, no matter how many times they asked me, my answer is one ; PARIS.
Why you asked ?
Easy I say.
That place is just beautiful and it takes my breath away.
I've been saving numerous and heaps of beautiful pictures of Paris in my computer and I never get bored looking at them.
There's something there that kept me drawn to it but I just don't know what yet.
Besides, I even persuaded my mum that I wanna go futher my studies in France and she kinda agreed and even allowed me to take french classes and then later say no because there's huge language barrier.
Bummer.
But that's not gonna stop me from going to Paris :D
And someday, I
hope to fall in love in Paris. LOL. Just saying.
I wonder these times, were you using me ?
Do you talk to me out of courtesy and manners ?
Or is it just because that we're still friends ?
Sometimes I want you and I wanna tell you that I love you and I really hate myself for feeling that way.
11:36 PM