PARTY !!
Thursday, September 30, 2010
Oh-Yeah ! Trials is so over babeyh and yours truly is gonna party tomorrow! :D
Well, the overview on what I felt about those trials.
BM - LOL! Wtf man.
SEJ - Managed
MATHS - WTF? Sure I'm the one the one that is gonna wash toilet.
ENGLISH - Screw you man! Give so many points expect us to finish in 1 hour plus?
BIOLOGY - FUCK YOU MAN!!! WTF is this?!
CHEMISTRY - G T H.
PHYSICS - Please pass omfg!
ADD MATHS - GTFO
Yeah. Apparently, I almost committed suicide on each and every paper 2 man. The word 'wtf' and 'wth' comes out from my mouth for God knows how many times.-.-
Well anyway, I hope I managed all these anyway.
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Ohyeah! I super duper can't friggin wait for tomorrow.
Badminton after school with my bitches. My darling's birthday dinner.
Serious shit, I am so happy. Life's good.
ps: Let's rock.
Labels: School Life
4:36 PM
I DO
Monday, September 27, 2010
We are all guilty of saving old messages from someone who became really special in our lives and going to familiar places that gives us that small twinge in our hearts and smiles on our faces.
It’s one of the most bittersweet feelings ever because every time that person crosses our minds, we remember the instances when we were happy and complete.
ps: our memories are just too many to be forgotten
Labels: emon-ess, heart-love
6:28 PM
CONFESSION
Thursday, September 23, 2010
If it was 8 months ago, I probably be crying my hearts out. Well, as time goes on people change. You and me, we change. Things change, people change.
My nightmare is over. No more waking up in the middle of the night and afraid to fall asleep again. No more crying when something reminds me of you. I no longer felt the pain when someone suddenly bring up this topic but now I finally can sleep comfortably.
It has been long, long enough. 8 months plus. I've been holding on for 8 months plus and hell yeah I feel stupid and at the same time I feel it is worth it. You're worth it.
I've heard stuff. People told me lots of stuff. Words of advice, a piece of their mind, whatever. I listen what I want to listen and shut my ears to the things that I don't want to hear. Because to me, I know things will be back to normal and we will be the same again.
I guess I was naive. I was madly in love and head over heels for you. To me you are still the guy that I once love. To me no matter what people say about you, you're still my hero, my angel.
After what you did to me. After knowing you hate me and if you see me you will freaking rip my face apart. Hey, I know that. And yet, I still love you. What kind of girl am I?
Even after knowing you have move on and that you like this new girl, I still pray and wish and hope that you'll come back to me.
Everyone ask me to give up and move on, including your own friends, but I refused. I was stubborn. I do not want to let go all the things between us.
I suffered alot during this 8 months. A lot. And that feeling, you'll never ever know as it had never happened to you cuz you dump girls, they don't dumb you.
All this while I asked myself why you left me? What I did to deserve this? Do you hate me that much? Was a just a pit stop for you?
DO I MEAN NOTHING?
I cried for you a lot if you wish to know. Especially the day when I saw you in tuition and you treat me like I was a total stranger. My tears meant nothing. It's okay as you now meant nothing either.
GOD IS GREAT. He answered my prayers. I can finally let go now.
One day I suddenly told my friends,"Hey, I realized something. I have amazing friends."
That's the moment I realized that you meant nothing to me. And I don't care what you do or what girl you're with because it doesn't matter.
You don't to have anything got to do with me, it's okay as I don't want anything to do with you too.
You want your life back, have it. You're enjoying it now I know. And so do I. My friends are priceless.
You don't want any complications, it's your problem as we are the leaders of our own life.
No doubt, no matter how much you hurt me, I'll always love you. Not the YOU now but the old you. I bet everyone love the old you.
The times with you meant so much to me and it will be buried today because I believe it had been long enough right?
Your promises to me are just like mine, it is meant to be broken.
It's funny how things changed so much between us.
I have my mistakes to you. I'm sorry.
This is my last post for you so I'll write your name down here as I don't want anyone to have any misunderstanding again like last time.
Goodbye,
......... Thanks for teaching me a great lesson in life that not all words and promises from guys should be trusted. So long and it's a pleasure meeting you. :)
ps: i'm sorry for everything. it hurts like hell to write this but I have to. SORRY!
5:40 PM
BIOLOGY
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Serious crap. I screwed my trials. =(
First of all, i'm dead sick. I can barely think and I just like," ugh. what's this. watever."
Today as usual the worst subject, BIOLOGY.
I seriously stayed up all might and tried to cram all those facts into my brain but I failed.
I woke up. Think positive. I told myself I'm able to do it.
Paper 1 & 3 was okay but paper 2. WTF ?!
I flipped through the pages. Stared at some questions. Close the paper and slept till 1.15 pm. Whoa.
And exam starts at 11.30am - 2.00pm. So, basically i screwed up. I scribbled whatever crap that I can think off and pass up. And I sware I'll read bio every freaking day after trials.
BIO, FUCK YOU MAN.Labels: Random blah's, School Life
6:35 PM
죽어도 못 보내 I’d Rather Die Than Let You Go
Sunday, September 19, 2010
어려도 아픈 건 똑같아
세상을 잘 모른다고
아픈걸 모르진 않아
괜찮아 질 거라고
왜 거짓말을 해
이렇게 아픈 가슴이 어떻게 쉽게 낫겠어
너 없이 어떻게 살겠어 그래서 난
죽어도 못 보내
내가 어떻게 널 보내
가려거든 떠나려거든 내 가슴 고쳐내
아프지 않게 나 살아갈 수 라도 있게
안 된다면 어차피 못살 거
죽어도 못 보내
아무리 니가 날 밀쳐도
끝까지 붙잡을 거야
어디도 가지 못하게
정말 갈 거라면 거짓말을 해
내일 다시 만나자고 웃으면서 보자고
헤어지잔 말은 농담이라고 아니면 난
죽어도 못 보내
내가 어떻게 널 보내
가려거든 떠나려거든 내 가슴 고쳐내
아프지 않게 나 살아갈 수 라도 있게
안 된다면 어차피 못살 거
죽어도 못 보내
그 많은 시간을 함께 겪었는데
이제와 어떻게 혼자 살란 거야
그렇겐 못해 난 못해
정말로 못 보내
내가 어떻게 널 보내
가려거든 떠나려거든 내 가슴 고쳐내
아프지 않게 나 살아갈 수 라도 있게
안 된다면 어차피 못살 거
죽어도 못 보내
Labels: k-pop
6:08 PM
WTT ?
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
OMFG !!!!! D:
SPM TRIALS TOMORROW !!!!
Haven't study finish :(
Bye, peeps. Will update after all the shitto exams :)
Labels: Eff-ed, Random blah's
5:41 PM
LET GO ?
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
I have to let go of our past.
I have to realize that it’s never going to happen again.
It’s just that, I can’t.
I can’t leave everything we had.
Most importantly, I can’t leave, even if you’ve already left me.
PS: awwwwww!!! :(
Labels: emon-ess, heart-love
6:40 PM
WAKE ME UP WHEN SEPTEMBER ENDS
Monday, September 6, 2010
I opened my eyes. I sat up. Hit my head. Looked around. Breathe a sight of relief. It was just a dream.
What has happened to me? Am I crazy? Why must I endure all these pain? Why must I endure this reoccurring nightmares? Why must I have all my happiness drained form myself? Why must I let the past haunt me every night? Why must I remember all these? WHY? WHY ME?!
I cry. I laugh. I get angry. Then I apologized. My emotions, they are uncontrollable. What had happened to the times where I could think rationally? What had happened to the times I never let my emotions overwhelmed me? What had happened to the times where I could laugh genuinely? What had happened to the times that I DO NOT HAVE TO LIFE THROUGH THIS DISGUISE.
I miss my old life. I miss being young. I miss being happy. I miss able to sleep throughout the whole night without needing to wake up from a nightmare. I miss being able to fly free. I miss where I can go to bed without thinking about anything. I miss when LOVE is only a fairytale.
At times I thought of dying. At times I thought of running. At times I thought that this is the end. At times I thought I'll never open my heart for anyone again. At times I though this is it. At times I thought it was just ME. At times I thought it's all over. I am going to die. At times I felt like suicide. At times when there's no one else, I thought of YOU. I am so pathetic, I know. You are not me, so you wouldn't know what am I enduring.
HEY YOU,
HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY.
MAY ALL YOUR WISH COME TRUE.
BE HAPPY ALWAYS AND GOOD LUCK IN YOUR FUTURE UNDERTAKINGS.
GOD BLESS YOU.
PS: I am sorry for everything.
Labels: emon-ess, heart-love
10:49 AM