RHYTHM OF THE FALLING RAIN
Sunday, March 28, 2010
It's getting late. It's raining. I could hear the sound of the rain pitter patter on my window. Such a lovely weather to get a good night sleep and yet I couldn't.
I'm having insomnia which is already very sickening. And yet, I still have all those thoughts lingering at my mind. Wish I really could take my brain and delete all that memories.
Sigh. For once I'm speechlessssss.
ME: Today when it rains I think of you leh. Dunno why.
YOU: Haha. Why? Miss me too much isit?
ME: Swt. No la. Cuz yesterday you told me smtg boud rain ma (:
YOU: so, when it rains from now on will you think of me ?
ME: Depends. If there's ntg on my mind, I will (:
It seemed like yesterday when you told me that. It seemed like a while ago we were sms-ing boud the 'rain song'. It seemed like a second ago I told you that I'm afraid of thunder.
But it has been months ago when I said all that. Months ago.
I STILL REMEMBER EVERYTHING CLEARLY. DO YOU?
ps,
those ppl that is questioning why I loathe the rain, I've answered you. ;)
Labels: emon-ess
11:11 PM
SAY IT ONLY IF YOU MEAN IT
Wednesday, March 24, 2010

It had been raining all day long these few days. When the dark clouds started to loom across the sky, I would let out a sigh. Somewhere when everyone is hoping that it would rain as the weather is really hot nowadays, deep down, I don't want it to rain at all. Even a single drop. Why I hated the rain? It holds to many memories. Thinking of it makes my heart ache and without me realising, tears would start to fall. Sometimes when no one is noticing, I would slowly creep out of the house and cry in the rain. That's the best way to cry isn't? No one would notice.
I know, there is never a forever and someday you would go. But why the terrible way you must leave me? DO you know your words that day cut throgh my heart like a knife? All those words that you've told me were all plain lies? The promises? Everything?
Were they all LIES?
There would be some days which I wished that I could turn back the time. And there would be some days too which I really wanted to phone you and just break down on the phone. But when I got back to my senses, I would realised how foolish I was to have such thoughts in my mind. As much as I wished that we could be like before, deep down I know by doing so would only hurt myself. How could I pretended nothing had happened between us and live back normally? Yes. I'm hurting myself. But letting you go and forget everything means believing that you never existed in my life. Sorry. So far till now, I still couldn't do so.
What am I saying? You're gone and it won't make a difference anymore. Take care.
Ps,
Credits to Huai Lin for the photo :)Labels: emon-ess
6:21 PM
ONE MONTH AFTERMATH
Sunday, March 21, 2010
YOU LEFT ME TO ROT FOR ONE MONTH ALREADY .
Labels: emon-ess, Random blah's
6:19 PM
Saturday, March 20, 2010
OK ?
Is that it? I'm really nothing to you. I'm stupid all this while that I thought you'll come back.
Labels: Eff-ed, emon-ess
12:27 AM
CRAZY DAY OUT
Friday, March 19, 2010
I swore that I did the craziest madness life threatening thing ever today and I swore if my mom or anyone that care about me knew I can kiss myself goodbye.
Today, me, YY, Mo and Chels went to Bunga Raya to buy stuff for Sports Day. Firstly, we went to Tong Hup but damn! There never sell the things we wanted and they say they can find everything in TH?! Waste of a time I shall say! We spend around 30 mins there and we only bought a spray. Pffffft.
Next, we went to Bunga Raya. Whoa. I've never been there for a very long time and things change. We park at the beginning of Bunga Raya there and we quickly hit the stores as we had not much time.
First stop, ANYANG. Damn. I tell you. You can find anything there. ANYTHING. From beads to ribbons to clothes. Basically everything. Well, the theme for this year is INSECTS. So, we decided on butterfly and I actually bought this super cute butterfly :) Then I spotted this really nice cloth for our wings, but Mo said its too expensive. :(
Then we headed to the junction. I tell you! Those three are crazy! They were like walking in the middle of the road like their grandfather own it! I almost got hit by a car! Thank god I bought insurance XD
When we stepped into the shop, I almost died. The shop smell was stinging my nose not to mention that it's not really in a good condition. But anyway, what can you expect from BUNGA RAYA stalls?! So, just hafta hold my breath and Mo boughtthis really nice cloth which we all agreed will look good as wings.
THE CRAZIEST THING HAPPEN!!!!!!!!!
I and Chels were running in the middle of the road. We cross and recrossed just to find a shop which sell hairbands. While I was crossing there's this car that honk at me. WTF? Drivers nowadays are just terrible!
We ran in the rain till the ( i dunno what's that place called!). We entered that emporium I tell you. I was so afraid that I thought I my heart is gonna pop out.
I kept telling Chelsea I'm afraid. Like, hello! I've never been to this kind of place before. Scary. And people at the streets are all scary looking. D:
Mo rushed us, I did ran in the rain. Yes, I was wearing Crocs at that moment so I almost fell for numerous times. Damn I'm so clumsy. If my bro knows about this, I'm murdered.
Ps,
I know I promised you that I will not endanger myself and I would take care of myself and I would be careful but I guess I broke it. Sorry.Labels: Random blah's
8:28 PM
27th
Thursday, March 18, 2010
I cried on the 27th day. What had happened to me? I can feel every inch of me breaking and it's just waiting for the time to fall apart. And yet I could do ntg about it.
Yes. I may seem really happy on the outside but inside you dont know.
WHY CANT I JUST ERASE MY THOUGHTS ABOUT YOU ?!
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Shall i ditch my blog and join tumblr ?Labels: emon-ess
11:41 PM
2010 RIMUP PREFECTS CAMP
Saturday, March 13, 2010
Sorry ACS, to be honest, the camp truly SUCK! It's a big turn off.
First of all, our money is defenitely not worth. We pay Rm55 for accommodations like that? It's not that I need some luxury kind of room, but a proper one will do. And the food? Hmmm. I think you guys should agree with me right?
I don't need to go further about the programme. The only interesting thing was the EXPLORACE. The rest were a total waste of our time.
Once a bastard, always will. Get yourself a life you bloody fucking gay ass !
Labels: Eff-ed, Random blah's, School Life
5:53 PM
LIFE
Friday, March 12, 2010
I’ve been wanting to blog everyday, but each time I place my fingers on the keyboard, the words don’t come out. . Sometimes I feel myself falling apart and I can’t do anything about it. It’s like I’m all confused inside and I can’t figure out why.
Okay, people. I know I've not been really blogging for days so here I am.
First of all, test ended. Hell yeah. The BM paper was a total madness. I stared at the frigin paper blankly not knowing how to do. Wth?
Since when BM rumusan isi so hard to find?! Komsas? Real crap. I was beating around the bush. Pfft.
Biology sucks to the highest degree. Friggin crap man.
The rest was manageable tough. :)
Yesterday, after
Add Maths which was a total amazement that I only leave 4 questions blank. The rest I did halfway and some I know how to do. Teehee. Anyway, back to the story.
Okay, a bunch of seniors were damn
ah lian man. Some senior Tb's even look like
ah Beng. The colour the use to dye their hair is not even matching with their skin colour. The way the dress, WOW. As though they come from Geylang.
And I and FT like commented on everyone that pass by. Well, not all. Just those bunch with the over done make up.
FT is carzy man.
Always crazy when I'm with her. :)
I will not dye my hair after SPM :) Never ever will I dye my friggin hair. I love my natural black colour. Hey, I'm an Asian!
And btw, I'm off to prefects camp a few hours more. So not looking foward to it. :(
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Yesterday was truly memorable. Damn, I love youuuuuu :D
“ 有你就行了^^”
Bwahahahaha. Yea. My qing ai told me that. We were smsing from 8pm till 2 am. Walaowei. I dint sleep till now.
And we were chatting and chatting and chatting. When this happened.
她:明天有没aktiviti吗?
我:没有. 你没听到announcement?
她: 是咩? 我没听道了.
我: 你memang. 什么都听不到. 不懂你听到的是什么.
她: 我就是没听到嘛.
我: 现在你就听到了咯.
她: 你跟我说了麻.
我: 我真的是好人. =D
她: 哈哈. 不要脸. 做么你还没睡?
我: 你也是还没睡哦. 我睡不到.
她: 哈哈. 做么不会睡?
我: 不是不会睡啦傻瓜. 是睡不到.
她: 为什么?
我: 我太想你了吧 :)
她: 哈..想肚.
我: 我说真的了. 你不想信我. 你去死吧.
她: 妈的. 骂我去死. 我看是你要死吧.
我: 如果断我真的死, 没一个人都会哭. 我是好人. 不会早死的. :)
她: 哈哈...不要脸哦....
that was half of it. got one part she even tell me.
“有你在我不用怕^^”
Labels: Random blah's, School Life
10:49 AM
QING AI DE
Thursday, March 11, 2010
QING AI DE, I LOVE YOU.
Labels: heart-love
6:11 PM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MO
Thursday, March 4, 2010
To the girl that never failed to be a the crazy one,There's never a dull day with you. (except when your stress)
You're always there with us no matter what.
It has been a long way till today.
So,
HAPPY SEVENTEEN BIRTHDAY BABE :)
May this year be a blissful year for you.
May you excel with flying colours for SPM.
May everything goes well for you including your love life. XD
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!
XOXO.
Labels: School Life
4:56 PM
SHELLABEAR ROCK !
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
RUMAH BIRU WON TARIK TALI IN SARINGAN!!!!
So worth it! Although I sprained my ankle, bleed my hand & lost my voice it's okay!
So proud of the tarika tali girls! :)
Gonna do our best in kawad kaki & cheerleading!!
HIDUP BIRU!!!
LONG LIVE SHELLABEAR !!!!!!
:)
Labels: School Life
4:16 PM