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That's how we all are,just stories
We only exist by how people remember us, by the stories we make of our lives.
Without those stories, we'd just fade away.
A LOVE ONCE LIVED
Saturday, January 30, 2010
I remembered how happy we used to be.
I remembered how you used to be by my side.
I remembered how you used to sing to me.
I remembered how you used to tell me some lame jokes.
I remembered how you used to tell me bedtime stories.
I remembered how you used to console me when I'm down.
I remembered how my heart leapt when I saw your name on my screen.
I remembered how I used to rush home from school just to reply your messages.
I remembered how I used to miss you when you're away.
I remembered how I used to cry when you're cold.
I remembered how we used to share secrets.
I remembered how I would keep myself awake just to sms you.
I remembered how I used to wake up early just to wish you good morning.
I remembered how you used to promise me.
I remembered how I everytime I used to think of you when it's raining.
I remembered how I ignored everyone's messages just to save credit to msg you.
I remembered that you said that "I rather be your moon that will shine on you during your darkest hours."
I remembered when you used to call me . . . . . . .
I remembered . . . . . . . . . .
I remember everything. Do you?
Everytime I listen to emo songs I would break down instantly.
Why do I keep thinking boud you?
Cried everytime I think about it. But you don't give a fucking damn.
The past shall be forgotten forever. The love shall be buried deep down.
Ps: I want to write more. But sadly I don't have the strength, none at all :( and it hurts me that I still couldn't get over it although I should.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
My life upside down this whole week!!!!!!!!!! Sighhhhhhhhhh. First of all, I lost my add maths textbook. Where is it? I dunno.
So, I can't do my homework & go to school and copy. Halleluyah! How to pass SPM?! Second, I lost the buku pengurusan koku which just landed me in deep shit.
I dunno where it is. I've been searching high & low but still don't have. I overturned my house (literally) also don't have!
Where is it?! Sigh.
I told my bro and he was like lolx. That guy is mad. But he gave me a brilliant idea anyway :D
He even wondered how could I lost that book? Am i born for doomsville? Third, I keep on procrastinating homework. :( Really dissapointed in that.
I've promised my beloved brother that I shall not procrastinate homework but yet I'm still doing it.
I'm really dissapointed in myself. Why do I have to always dissapoint people that I love? Iwish I could be like you but I can't. Why? Fourth, I'm a moody brat. Mood swings easily=MSE.
I keep scolding and getting mad on small little things.
I even cried in school today. I damn stress larh. Sigh.
Thank you my brother for being there for my mood swings and uncontrolable temper. Pfft.
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Today's EXCO 2010 WAS DAMN HELL OF A FUCKING AWESOME :D
I enjoyed myself and had hell lotta fun getting 'high'
We oooohhh-ahhhhh-booooo XD
It was damn fun! Especially the part where the malay motivator trying to talk like 'ang moh' but ended up saying paper as pepper XD
But he not bad larh. Talking a lot of PC. Lolx!
And the rest of the ceramah = sleep larh. Lucky I got entertainer at the back of me. Or not, lama already I sleep. Thank you TAN FANG TING :)
We finally made through all obstacles to celebrate Mr Lim Chow Koon's belated birthday. Each time we wanna celebrate there is sure somethung happen one. I sick la, he never stay back la, this la that la. And today, after one week. Finally! This is it!
Okay. We actually ask Mr Siah & Mr Rajendran to spy on Mr Lim activities. They did their job well done. They can be international spies to keep top secrets like that =D Around 1, me & mo went down to meet Grace they all. We signal to Ray d. Yo & Grace went to take the cake. We ran up. Still to early. We light up the cake. Mr Siah in 5k5. Double checked everything, PERFECT. So, JO & Chels went to lengahkan time there. Can you believe wad stupid question tat emilia ask. Adui. Can ki siao & long piak man. == Anyway, 1.15, RRRIIIINNNNNGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Grace bring in the cake, we started singing so damn effi loud. (i found out the whole school heard) He was damn shocked man. Should see the look on his face. Aduiiii~ XD He blow candle, make wish & cut cake. NOTE: Never let him cut anymore cakes.
So, basically that's it. Few photo's I stold from rad. I din't bring camera.
The man :)
The poor cake :(
Weeehahahaha. Toopid :D
Ada style lehhhhhh XD
He was damn shocked that I think he's gonna cry. LOLX!
Grace bringing in the cake :)
:)
Thank you for everyone that has been helping out to make this plan a success. Thank you :)
ps: more photos soon.
9:37 PM
BRAINLESS
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
I was sick okay. For the past 3 days. And I'm not faking it. I just came back to school today. I was resting the whole day at home yesterday. I felt better that's why I went to school today. So, I din't do experiment la. I just see only. Then, she said," Sofea, is this the way you do experiment?" I replied,"Sick larh teacher." I replied nicely. AND, she said I everyday sick and I'm always using the same excuse. WTF?! HELLO!!!! I went back early on Monday which means I missed your class and I din't even go to school yesterday!!! So, how on EARTH I use the same fooking excuse everyday?? And ya!! Who sick everyday also??? MADNESSSS!!!!!! If that wasn't enough, she scolded me for talking when the rest of the effi 29 students were talking much much louder than me!!!! WTH?!! And, after doing our peka experiment, we start calculating. I copied from Jo the time and at the same time she copy from Chelsea. So basically we're copying each other right? She said,"Sofea, don't only know how to copy." Walaoweiiii! Wad her fooking problem with me?! Then lastly when the bell rung, so got those people from other science lab will pass by to go back to class ma. It's freaking normal when something distract you, you will look rite? And hell yeah. I got scolded again. I was so pissed. I said,"There. Everything me again." She damn kns man! Crazy woman!!!!! She anti me, I also anti her back lah. Wad's so difff? Early in the morning made my blood pressure rise up. @!#$^%&*(**&&*&&%)^&##T@#@##$ After doing all that, she don't even feel remorse!!
AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
How people like her qualified?? DAMN la. I won't pay attention in her class anymore. I got go tt wad I care. !#$~%$##^@@ Go die la.
ps: will update much nicer things tmr or maybe friday. Sorry for profanity.
The heart that you stepped all over and left is still beating, And it's beating for you No matter how hard i try to forget No matter how many new people i meet Why do i keep thinking of only you when i turn around I don't want to do this anymore. I want to stop. No matter how many times i try and try to stop myself It's no use. My heart is broken, why
Why do i keep doing such foolish things I know in my head, but why is my heart rebelling I'm holding on to you and can't let go. It still feels like you're next to me. I can't believe in farewell No matter who i meet, I can't open up one part of my heart and i keep your place empty There's no reason for you come back, But why do i keep thinking that you might come back Why isn't my heart listening
Listen to my heartbeat, it's beating for you Listen to my heartbeat, it's waiting for you Don't i know that it's over. I don't understand why i'm like this
Listen to my heartbeat, it's beating for you Listen to my heartbeat, it's waiting for you It still hurts thinking of you. I think of you every time my heart beats
I have to forget. i have to forget in order to live I have to erase it. If i don't, i'll die Stop trying to get her back. She ain't coming
She's gone, gotta be moving on She left, she won't come back. She doesn't think of you.
She doesn't know that i'm waiting for her, she's doing well She already forgot about me, totally erased me. Why can't i do that ?
Listen to my heartbeat. it's beating for you Listen to my heartbeat. it's waiting for you My heart is beating faster and faster (x4)
ps: current obsession :)
9:36 PM
=X
Thursday, January 14, 2010
I feel so fcuked up today. Wtf is wrong with me???????????? Sigh. I'm so stress & tired. I got a lot work not yet do ar. Physics, Chemistry, Add maths, Bm karangan, Maths, Sivik folio & Bio. That one not include tomorrow subjects. Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Come back only show temper. Mum scold me. Whole afternoon dint do homework. Listen songs :DD And GUESS ehat stupid clumsy careless thing I did? As I was msging my bro, I TERDELETE all his conversation. Stupid I-phone. Ishh. Lagi I feel fcuked up. Then I started crying & showing my trantrum. Sigh. I think I have a problem. I complained to my bro. He said me clumsy. Tell so many times to be careful also never heed his advice :(
Well, we had AGM today. Tomorrow also will have. GOOD NEWS= No need study XD Well, I become AJK of Photography Club & Asst. Secretary of Rangers. Adui. Name list not yet type yet. Really NO TIME. :( Anyway, Ray brought Jelly Beans today. It's not bad I have to admit. But I still love & devour Jellies :)
Jelly is the true winner :)
Lalalalalalalalalalalalalallalalalalalallalala~~
MY SCHEDULE FOR 2010 SCHOOLING DAYS :
MONDAY
2.40 : School dismissed
7.30-9.30 : Chemistry tuition
TUESDAY
2.40 : Class finish
3.15-4.45 : House practice
WEDNESDAY
2.30-3.30 : Prefect meeting (alternate week)
7.30-9.30 : Biology tuition
THURSDAY
1.15 : Class ended
2.00-4.00 : Koku
FRIDAY
12 : School dismiss
12.30-1.30 : Badminton
SATURDAY
9-11 : Add maths tuition
SUNDAY
9.30-12 : BM tuition
There goes my hetic life. This is it man! Few months left & I'm done :)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR LIM CHOW KOON :)
You still look young although you are 51:) Still charming :D Hope you happy everyday & stay young XD I LOVE YOUR LESSONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You are the best English Teacher EVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR :))
I hate Physics. I super duper hate physics. First, it's not only the subject which I do not really understand. The teachers are making it worst. The same goes for chemistry. Is it legal to blog bad things about teachers? Lolx. Better don't. I don't want kena gantung. Lolx. So much homework yet so littke time. I've been sleeping for like four hours only every night. I really do not have the time to finish it all. I procrastinate some. There goes my new year resolution. :(
And, i'm pissed in Physics today.Well, it's because of the STAR that think she is very smart. Hello gal. How on Earth do you think I'm supposed to know that convex lens is supposed to be negative when you equate??? For that, sir said me. Wtf. You think I as smart as you? Please la. At least, I'm honest & true to myself. I dunno, I ask. Unlike you. Always ampu here there. Got benefit? Ceh. Please. Gross man. You are nothing but a two faced pretender. Only those teachers believe you lah. But we know you very well. Stupid show off.
Tomorrow, first period early in the morning CHEMISTRY. There goes my happy day. I not yet even do my PEKA. Sigh. I can sense danger tomorrow.
gtg write my essay & get those homework done. Toodles.
Thank you bro for teaching me add maths yesterday :)
8:58 PM
SPEECHLESS
Saturday, January 9, 2010
Do you realise that you hurt me one time after another? DO you realise that you hurt me again & again? NO. You don't!!!! You always hurt me without realising it. Why do you even bother to apologise when you keep doing it again?? Yesterday night when we argue and turn it into fight is really not my fault. And yet why do I still cry? It's because I'm really dissapointed in you. You dint tell me anything! Really! Do you think I dunno whether you've told me or not?? You just said to me," I'm going hiking." That's all. And yes I did not reply on that. I'm sorry. But you dint tell me that you were staying overnight. You dint tell me you gonna bring your phone. You dint tell me anything!!! You just told me that. And you said you remember clearly you told me. NO okay?! You told someone else & you said you told me. WTH? And I did reply you yesterday night. You are the one that din't reply & then you wanna be mad at me? Don't you think it's unfair to me?? And this morning...Sigh.... I'm speechless. Tonight you wanna text me or not, it's your wish. Your problem. I've told you it's hard to be mad at you. Well, it really is. I'm not angry. I'm just dissapointed. And why should I keep my promise? If i wanna be clumpsy & get into danger also. I don't need to stay alive for you. It's my own problem. You don't have to worry about me. Who am I to you? NOTHING!!!
Go away. Leave me alone. :(
11:34 AM
HETIC HETIC
Thursday, January 7, 2010
I'm so tired & I've laughed too much. Way too much that I think I can't laugh anymore.
I have tons of homework to complete & that need to be handed up on time. And yet, here I am blogging, ignoring my homework. I even have a folio to hand in in two weeks time. Yes, a folio on the first week of school. I realised this is just the starting of my hetic life. Next week, we'll have AGM then ko-ku starts. (I won't be blogging that much) Today, during English lessons, Mr Lim gave us a newspaper article for our reading comprehension. Actually, I've read the article last week in the newspaper. But there's no harm reading it again. It's a very interesting article, and it relate much with my life. Our to be exact. After reading the article, it did triggered me. SPM! And the way Mr Lim talks about the article is really funny & interesting. I'm looking foward to ALL English lessons. ALL :) And anyway, I'm kinda stress out these few days. I know I should me optimistic & look at the bright side of life. But well, I'm always pessimist.
Well, nothing much to say anymore. Off to do my homework. Toodles.
Monday Well, I reached as early as 6.20 with Meng to book a place in class. We get as we wish, under the fan. Then later we found out that fan can only be on at 9 am. Save electric. Everybody come early that day man, even the people come late also always come early. Sibeh unbeliveable. D: Then, it was prep talk from principle. She said a lot thing laa. Then she say these two words:
"What is yours will always be yours."
"What is not yours, no matter how you nail it with you, it will never be yours"
I so agree man! So, SPM 2010 :)
First day, homework like mountain d. Ish.
Tuesday< Assembly for 2 periods!! Walaowei. So sien. I keep yawn n yawn. I love English class!! :) MR LIM CHOW KOON YOU ROCK OUR WORLD!!! The best English teacher of my life !! Woots~
Wednesday Which is today. Haha. Today is awesome!!! Physic rock, Chemist rock, English also rock !! And Physic today sir said, "THE LONGER THE BETTER" And got few people think to the other side then sir said we thinking dirty. == We failed our Chemistry experiment. Re-do twice also fail. Then, Mo cheated. Terrible. Same class with the head prefect very stressful. No correction tape & liquid paper. Lolx. Homework today more than Mount everest. Gonna get doing.
So, toodles for now :)
PS: I know that I spent less time with you now. So sorry. I'll make it up to you alright? Take care :)
5:36 PM
I <3 You.
Saturday, January 2, 2010
I was telling my brother yesterday on how effi unlucky I am yesterday. I cried. He consoled me & ask me to cheer up. He ask me to buy a good luck charm. Superstitous guy. XD Anyway, after he force me to sleep at 11.20 yesterday, I jokingly told him tat when I open my eyes tomorrow I wanna see my good luck charm.
My wish came true. Literally of course. (below is what he send)
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may this lucky charm bring good luck to you wherever you go and in watever you do.. ~a gift from your bro~
I was shocked, stunned, touched. You name it. I cried. I couldn't believe it. That sweet mush. Aww.
Okay. I know. It's just a message. But it really meant so much to me. Really muchhhhhh. Sighhhhhh.
To my dear brother,
I know. You always say that you are not good enough for me. You're just an ordinary guy. And maybe you can't promise me everything or maybe anything. So what? I care? I love you for who you are. But saying you'll try is enough for me. I don't mind. You have always been a good brother for me. Cheering me up, comforting me, supporting me and being my crying shoulder. I really appreciate that. I want nothing more from you. It's enough. I'm sorry. I know I've not been a good sister to you. But I promise. I'll always be there for you.
Thank you for everything.
4:06 PM
2 0 1 0 D:
Friday, January 1, 2010
O M F G !!!!
It's 2010 !!!
SPMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM !!!!!!!!!!
I'm so effi not ready for SPM. D: DIE.
NEW YEAR RESOLUTION for 2010 : #1. Straight A in SPMMMMM #2. No more holding back homework #3. No more facing computer so much #4. Less play online games #5. Stop chasing hong kong n korean dramas (only for this year) #6. Less hanging out at malls or whenever #7. LESS USE BAD WORD XDDDD #8. Less sleep in class
2010 NEW YEAR WISHES : #1. Good health for my family & everlasting happpiness :) #2. Unforgettable memories in 2010 #3. To be with xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx forever :D
Yesterday, my brother promised me to countdown with me. The day before I even ask for his confirmation. Then, he actually doze off to dreamland at 11.50! Which is another effi 10 mins to new year. WTH?!! Anyway, being his sweet self, he wished me at 12.49 am today & also this morning. Awwwww~ XD