NOW AND FOREVER
Sunday, May 8, 2011
First time after seventeen years, here I am. All alone, and it feels so weird and so different.
Well, this is the first time in my life for now that I'm not celebrating mother's day in Malacca with my mum. I supposed to go back this weekend but shit happens so yeah I'm in KL doing assignments and stuff. Ughh. Why am I not in Malacca ? And I'm not goin back next weekend also. Guess I'm only going home during my sem break. Shit really happens.
Well, the other day I went to my friends house, and in her room there's this big manila card where she paste her family photo and there were words of encouragement from her parents, sister and brother. And I got teary eyed reading what her family told her and on that exact moment I thought of my family back in Malacca. I miss my mum and my annoying brother that I wish I can go home that instant.
And I felt really lucky that my mum still phone me countless times in a day to nag me and I'm happy that my brother too do phone me quite often to check whether I'm dead yet or not. Before, I will get really fed-up and tired when my mum or my brother told me about their day but now, I never got tired hearing them. I feel like asking them never to hang up the phone.
Trust me, it's true that we will only appreciate something after we lose it. Last time all I wanna do is to leave home and be independent and enjoy life and stuff but now all I wanna do is to stay at home and watch dramas. :')
Mummy,
Sorry if I always disobey you. Sorry that I'm not the perfect child and also the perfect daughter. Sorry that I raised my voice at you at times or sometimes at the back of my head I want you gone when you yell at me. Sorry if I'm hard headed. Sorry that I'm lazy and ignorant. Sorry for everthing that I did wrong mum.
But I thank you for making me live in this world for who am I now without you ? If there's no you, there would not be me. Thank you for bringing me up, protecting me and loving me. Thank you for giving me the best things in my life for every little thing you do means a lot to me. Thank you for teaching me what is right and what is wrong. Thank you mummy. Thank you for everything.
Mii, don't worry. I'll take care of you when you grow old like how you took care of me when I was young. You're important to me, don't ever doubt that. Although I never show you how much I love you but beneath all my ego, I really do.
MUMMY, I ♥ YOU ! ! ! ! !
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