Have you ever loved someone so much, you'd give an arm for ?
Not the expression, no, literally give an arm for ?
When they know they're your heart,
And you know you were their armor,
And you will destroy anyone who would try to harm her
But what happens when fate, turns right around and bites you ?
And everything you stand for, turns on you to spite you ?
What happens when you become the main source of her pain ?
Warning : EMO POST AHEAD HAH !
Well, I came across this video on you tube and I saw like tons of people in FB post this video. So, I open and watch thinking that it was a song but fuck, it's a 16 minutes of mind-fucking-heart-stabbing video. To those that in a a breaking up and healing process, I suggest that you should not watch this as it's gonna make matter worst instead of good.
We started off as strangers, then to friends, then to good friends, then to .............. (waittt, whut ? IS THIS PART EVEN REAL ? ) then to enemies and now, strangers. I can say that this video relate to my life like 99% so when I watched it, I'm like ohhh, ohkayy.
I still remember the first day I met you, it was three years back. And just so you know, three years aint a short period of time and so is 5 months.
I could still remember when I first text you, there were like a gazillion of butterflies flying around in my stomach and I was so nervous and all but what the hell I thought to myself, the message is already sent so might as well just wait for it and I guess the butterflies was worth it if you ask me.
Just so you know, since that night, it was a dream come true for me. In the beginning, my feelings for you is not really deep just those kind of one-sided puppy love but as day turned into night and as time goes by, I fell for you and I fell hard.
You were the one, infact the first one that I'll stay up all night just to text you. You were the one that made me wait for your text and make me smile for no apparent reason. And each moment when I'm with you, I feel like as if my life is complete. You made me happy in many way and you were always there when I need you.
Just so you know, the times with you was the best thing that had ever happened to me.
But I guess, this is life. Things started to get real sour for us. I felt you were not the same anymore, you were somewhat just different. You started being cold to me and this had left me crying for a few nights. I wonder what the hell I did wrong that you changed. Your messages they were all cold and dark and nothing for me to look forward about.
When one party stopped trying, eventually everything will just fade. I don't remember the last time you told me good night and sweet dreams instead of just nite. And by this, slowly and slowly we started to drift further and further apart. The magical bond that used to hold us together was just GONE.
Eventually after a few weeks of not talking, you left. And I was alone, my world was dark and I was pouring my hearts out for weeks and months.
I was clinging to the words that you told me.
You moved on, FAST while I stayed for some time.
After one whole year, and today I came across this video, I told myself, it is time to move on. No point dwelling in the past. It makes you more miserable.
It's not and never easy to forget you but if there's a will there's a way.
What is the point in remembering the things that you don't give a fuck ?
Maybe all this, I just made it up myself. We were never real, weren't we ?
Just to let you know ;
Thank you for letting me in your life for that period of time. I never regret knowing you. You were somewhat special and a good friend to me. (:
PS : If you ever come across my blog and read this post, I am sorry if I did write something that hurt you in any way.
PPS : THIS IS FICTION AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA !
OH ! MY SCHOOL